21 days: “Hi. I’m three weeks old…the size of the nail on your thumb.”
“I’m a surprise . . . my mom doesn’t know about me yet. She’s expecting her period next week, but I know it will not come….because I’m here ..(he he) I hope she will like my surprise”
50 days: “Ohh, my mom still don’t know about me, but I have grown. I already look like a human being….almost …. At least you can see what will become my arms and legs. I’m going to be perfect…and I have the genes to become a famous musician.”
80 days: “ I’m a human now….outside…with everything perfect created. I'm a boy . . . Do you like to have a boy mom? I only have to stay here, inside my mom’s body, until my internal organs is developed enough to work by itself. I have to put on weight…that’s it. I’m the size of your thumb. Small, but strong.”
81 days: “I heard mom tell dad that she would go to the doctor today. That means, she will be sure that I’m here….Ohhh, I’m so excited….I hope she will be happy, because I’m so happy that she is my mom.”
Later the same day: “ I heard the doctor said: ’congratulation Mrs. Hanna. You are expecting a healthy and strong child.’ . . .
But. . . what is happening??? I heard my mom say: ’I don’t want it.’
You don’t want me, mom???”
90 days: “Mom, I heard you told dad that you want to make abortion . . . what is that, mom. Is it something which will make me strong??”
100 days: “Mom, do you know what? Now I can hear clearly all the sounds, both inside you body and outside. I can separate your voice from dads and others. I love the sound of your heart, mom …. And I can feel . . . pain, fear, happiness, sorrow. When you feel fear, I feel fear too and this morning you bumped into the table so it pushed you stomach, and I felt pain.”
110 days: “ Today you shall go to the doctor again. Mom, before you go . . . it’s something I want to tell you. When I grow up, I’m going to become a famous and rich musician and I’m going to play for royalties and have big concerts all over the world. Then I will buy you the house you want so much.”
Later the same day: “ ohhh mom, what are you saying?? I heard you tell the doctor that you didn’t want this child . . . Is it me you really mean, mom? You really don’t want me?”
The doctor: “Well, Mrs. Hanna. I want to tell you the procedure . . . either we use an instrument like a knife. We cut the fetus into pieces and take out the body-parts . . . or we use an instrument which literally blows the fetus into pieces, afterwards we suck out what is left of the fetus with a kind of vacuum-cleaner.”
Mrs. Hanna: “I don’t care what way, only get it out”
“Ohhh, what is going on?? Mom shall into the hospital after 4 days . . . “
114 days: “ I feel so uncomfortable. It feel as if mom is not sure of what she wants to do. Someone told her to take a shower . . . maybe that will freshen her up.”
The doctor: “ Mrs. Hanna, you can still change your mind. Only tell me to stop and no harm will be done.”
“ Mom, can I tell you something? I know that . . . if you let me live, you will be so happy for me later, when I’m about 17 years old…because the . . e . .ee . . EE . . EE…………… “
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“Mrs. Hanna. Are you awake . . . it’s over. Take a rest for a couple of hours and you can go home.”